So it is Monday morning, and I am sitting at my "new" desk on the first floor of NW. I started my new hours this morning, (8:30am to 5pm). I think I am the only one here right now. I know there should be other people here, but I have no idea where they are.
Laura called the internet company this morning, and it looks like we will have internet and a phone again soon. Now I can look for jobs and surf porn in the comfort of my own home. I believe it has been close to 2 year since we have had phone and internet service in the Schwartz household.
Monday, August 24, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
May 14th
Well, I guess there is a lot of stuff to update on. First off I will be a father again on June 9th, my wife and I are having a scheduled c-section. It will be interesting with two boys under the age of 3. This is not the way I planned my life at all, but I guess you have to roll with the punches. I am very excited to have another little boy. But this is it, two and done. I love my son, and I am sure my new boy will be great, but I want to be done after two. I think in August (if time permits) I am going to get snipped. My wife on the other hand is not so sure, I think she is holding out hope to have another child. She wants a little girl. Maybe I will look into freezing sperm, but it will depend on the cost. Like I said before, I love kids, but I would like to have some fun. I have found out kids are great, but there is only so many things you can do with them.
I tried to quit chewing, and it lasted for a few days. But, I am stressed out on a regular basis, and chewing tobacco is my out let. It takes my mind off of some of the things that bother. I am going to keep trying. Maybe when the new baby gets here I will try to quit again.
In one of the previous blog posts I talked about a trial my mother was going through. As far as I am told, everything went well, but they won't hear the final answer until September or October. So I am going to be somewhat on edge until then. I don't think my parents are telling me the whole truth. It will be interesting to see what happens.
Right now, I am going through a personal dilemma. I was offered and took a new job with NW. I am not really happy about the position, but I need to put food on the table and with my current position I am afraid I am going to get fired any day. I have been "on the bench" for almost two months now, and it doesn't look like they are going to find anything for me. I am trying to learn as much as I can about software testing, but my mind drifts. I feel like such a waste of space everyday. I come into work, and most of the day I play on the Internet, or play games on my laptop. At the end of everyday I tell myself tomorrow is going to be different. Then I come in, in the morning and waste another day. It is no one's fault but my own. What can I do to motivate myself? I Tell myself to get my sh!t right, but it just doesn't work. Maybe it is the fact that I think I am going to get fired at any minute and I don't want to invest any more time into this position. At the same time, I don't want to get fired. I love my job. I guess I have a few "wishes" right now.
I tried to quit chewing, and it lasted for a few days. But, I am stressed out on a regular basis, and chewing tobacco is my out let. It takes my mind off of some of the things that bother. I am going to keep trying. Maybe when the new baby gets here I will try to quit again.
In one of the previous blog posts I talked about a trial my mother was going through. As far as I am told, everything went well, but they won't hear the final answer until September or October. So I am going to be somewhat on edge until then. I don't think my parents are telling me the whole truth. It will be interesting to see what happens.
Right now, I am going through a personal dilemma. I was offered and took a new job with NW. I am not really happy about the position, but I need to put food on the table and with my current position I am afraid I am going to get fired any day. I have been "on the bench" for almost two months now, and it doesn't look like they are going to find anything for me. I am trying to learn as much as I can about software testing, but my mind drifts. I feel like such a waste of space everyday. I come into work, and most of the day I play on the Internet, or play games on my laptop. At the end of everyday I tell myself tomorrow is going to be different. Then I come in, in the morning and waste another day. It is no one's fault but my own. What can I do to motivate myself? I Tell myself to get my sh!t right, but it just doesn't work. Maybe it is the fact that I think I am going to get fired at any minute and I don't want to invest any more time into this position. At the same time, I don't want to get fired. I love my job. I guess I have a few "wishes" right now.
- "They" find a contract for me.
- I find something else, a better, higher paying job.
- The NW job is something that turns into something better real quick (I don't think this is going to happen).
- I win the lottery, and I don't have to work (I know this won't happen, I don't even play the lottery).
I know everything is going to be ok, I just wish it would speed up and be ok now. I have to stay positive, other wise I will be a wreck.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
April 29th
I talked to both my mother and my sister yesterday, and they told me the trial went well. There are still 2 days left, so I am trying to stay optimistic. Who know what is going to happen.
Last night I decided to go to a career fair downtown. I think it was worth while to an extent. WF was there, and I talked to a woman there who I hope will help me. The woman at Banker's Trust was very rude, I was trying to feel out what position they had available. When I went up to her and did know exactly what I wanted to do, she jumped down my throat. Telling me I need to know what I want, and not make the employer guess. Well, I would do that, but I don't know how I can fit into your organization. It is a little hard to know what I want to do when I don't know what you have.
Another day, another time to read through QC. It is so much fun.
Last night I decided to go to a career fair downtown. I think it was worth while to an extent. WF was there, and I talked to a woman there who I hope will help me. The woman at Banker's Trust was very rude, I was trying to feel out what position they had available. When I went up to her and did know exactly what I wanted to do, she jumped down my throat. Telling me I need to know what I want, and not make the employer guess. Well, I would do that, but I don't know how I can fit into your organization. It is a little hard to know what I want to do when I don't know what you have.
Another day, another time to read through QC. It is so much fun.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
April 28th
Last night I got the pleasure of see a Holocaust survivor speak. The woman's name is Marion Blumenthal Lazan. She is a survivor from Germany, and was in the Bergen-Belsen.I went to watch Marion with my mother, my mother's friends and my older sister. I have seen many survivor speak, been to a few Holocaust memorials/museums. Marion is a very good speaking, what I found interesting about her speech, was how easy it is for her to recite her story. I sure it is because she has told it so many time, I just found it interesting how easy it was for her.
Today is the first day of my mother and step-father's trial. I am interested to find out what happens. I should be receiving a call later today.
I am still working on learning QC. I keep rereading the same thing over and over again. I am not retaining the information, which is very frustrating to me.
I finally made it back into the gym after a 3 week lay off. I need to get in shape, I am tried of being the fat kid.
Today is the first day of my mother and step-father's trial. I am interested to find out what happens. I should be receiving a call later today.
I am still working on learning QC. I keep rereading the same thing over and over again. I am not retaining the information, which is very frustrating to me.
I finally made it back into the gym after a 3 week lay off. I need to get in shape, I am tried of being the fat kid.
Monday, April 27, 2009
April 27th
Nothing too exciting is going on in my life right now. I had another interview last week, and I think it went pretty well. My concern, is I just won't be happy working there. But at the same time, I want a new job because I still think I am going to get fired from my current job at any minute.
My weekend wasn't too exciting. I went over to my sister's house Saturday night with my wife and son, and watched a couple movies. The movies were OK, I think I would have been a woman they would have been more funny to me.
I really need to get back into the gym, but I just have no motivation to get up in the morning and go. I feel like such as lazy fat a$$ right now. I haven't been to the gym in over 3 weeks now, and I think it is really starting to wear on me.
My weekend wasn't too exciting. I went over to my sister's house Saturday night with my wife and son, and watched a couple movies. The movies were OK, I think I would have been a woman they would have been more funny to me.
I really need to get back into the gym, but I just have no motivation to get up in the morning and go. I feel like such as lazy fat a$$ right now. I haven't been to the gym in over 3 weeks now, and I think it is really starting to wear on me.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
April 22nd
I think today is going to be an interesting day. I have no idea why this is, it just sounds good today. The wife and I had a nice dinner with my sister, brother-in-law and my niece. We went out to Mexican. After dinner, the beau and I transferred all my music off of my work laptop and put it on my external hard drive. The beau also gave me a bunch of music from his hard drive. I need to wade through all this music and see exactly what I want.
After the whole music sharing, I sat down and talked with my sister and the beau, more or less shooting the shit. We talked about all kinds of stuff. Parenting and my wife were two very big topics. My parents and my sister like my wife, but they are little frustrated with her. She treats her family very differently that she treats my family. The bad part about the whole thing, I agree more with my parents that I do with my wife. I hate that my almost two years old son hits my wife. She does almost nothing about it, and he keeps hitting her. I tell him no, but she doesn't. I just don't want it to continue to happen, what happens when he goes to school and still hits. They will kick him out. I guess I just need to work harder.
I blew up on my mother Sunday night at dinner for buying golf clubs for my son. I know I shouldn't have, but I just had a lot of pent up aggression and I guess it came to a head on her for buy him some golf clubs. Thing about it, is my mother and father got divorced when I was 7 and my father never did things for me. J is more of a college buddy that my father. He always just wants to be my buddy. So I think the reason I blew up, was because I want to do all the things for my kids my father never did for me. This morning I sent my mother an apologetic email.
After the whole music sharing, I sat down and talked with my sister and the beau, more or less shooting the shit. We talked about all kinds of stuff. Parenting and my wife were two very big topics. My parents and my sister like my wife, but they are little frustrated with her. She treats her family very differently that she treats my family. The bad part about the whole thing, I agree more with my parents that I do with my wife. I hate that my almost two years old son hits my wife. She does almost nothing about it, and he keeps hitting her. I tell him no, but she doesn't. I just don't want it to continue to happen, what happens when he goes to school and still hits. They will kick him out. I guess I just need to work harder.
I blew up on my mother Sunday night at dinner for buying golf clubs for my son. I know I shouldn't have, but I just had a lot of pent up aggression and I guess it came to a head on her for buy him some golf clubs. Thing about it, is my mother and father got divorced when I was 7 and my father never did things for me. J is more of a college buddy that my father. He always just wants to be my buddy. So I think the reason I blew up, was because I want to do all the things for my kids my father never did for me. This morning I sent my mother an apologetic email.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
April 21st
So like I said before I WAS trying to stop chewing. I went almost 48 hours without a chew. Well, I broke down and bought a can. I was shaking, and I just needed a chew. This scares the crap out of me, I need to stop. There are some many things that can happen to my body, and I want to be around for when I kids grow up. I am going to keep quiting, and I hope one of these days it takes.
I am still trying to find something, I keep going on interviews but nothing is popping. Every interview I have been on I have not gotten. This just sucks. Yesterday I talked with NW, and I have an interview with them on Thursday morning. I am a little frustrated, because that job would be taking a step backward. It is the exact same thing I did when I worked for MM. But, there is the possibility to make about the same amount of money I am making now. But, it may also mean I don't get to see my family. I believe the hours are 10 to 8, so there would be the possibility for shift differential but that is probably off set by the time factor. It is just a lot to think about right now. My mother talked to a psychic a couple weeks ago, and she said I would find a new job but I would not like it. I keep wondering if the NW job is what she was talking about. I would be perfect for this job, I am sure there are other people who are as qualified as I am, but who knows.
On a happier note, last night my mother and step father bought my son a new bed. I spent about an hour putting it together in our living room. I am looking forward to put it up in his room and getting him used to it. I hope we can get CJ accumulated to the new bed before the new baby gets here. The funny part about the whole thing, a few months ago my mother said something to my wife and I about a new bed. My wife (because it came from my mother) wanted nothing to do with getting my son a new bed. He currently has a convertible crib that he sleeps in, and my wife said we would just convert that and he could still sleep in it. I took an educated look at it, and it made more sense to buy CJ a new bed and put the new baby in his old one. It is going to take some work on my wife and I's part, but I think we can get it done. The problem, is we only have a month and a half to get him used to it. I think we are going to start working on it tomorrow.
I am still trying to find something, I keep going on interviews but nothing is popping. Every interview I have been on I have not gotten. This just sucks. Yesterday I talked with NW, and I have an interview with them on Thursday morning. I am a little frustrated, because that job would be taking a step backward. It is the exact same thing I did when I worked for MM. But, there is the possibility to make about the same amount of money I am making now. But, it may also mean I don't get to see my family. I believe the hours are 10 to 8, so there would be the possibility for shift differential but that is probably off set by the time factor. It is just a lot to think about right now. My mother talked to a psychic a couple weeks ago, and she said I would find a new job but I would not like it. I keep wondering if the NW job is what she was talking about. I would be perfect for this job, I am sure there are other people who are as qualified as I am, but who knows.
On a happier note, last night my mother and step father bought my son a new bed. I spent about an hour putting it together in our living room. I am looking forward to put it up in his room and getting him used to it. I hope we can get CJ accumulated to the new bed before the new baby gets here. The funny part about the whole thing, a few months ago my mother said something to my wife and I about a new bed. My wife (because it came from my mother) wanted nothing to do with getting my son a new bed. He currently has a convertible crib that he sleeps in, and my wife said we would just convert that and he could still sleep in it. I took an educated look at it, and it made more sense to buy CJ a new bed and put the new baby in his old one. It is going to take some work on my wife and I's part, but I think we can get it done. The problem, is we only have a month and a half to get him used to it. I think we are going to start working on it tomorrow.
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