November 8th, 2009

So it is officially 2:30 in the morning and I can not sleep. It has been a while since I updated last. Let me update you on what has gone on.

First off, we (my whole family) went to Siesta Key FL. It was an interesting trip, I had a lot of fun but while we were there we found out that my father-in-law almost died. Now I did not want my father-in-law to die, but and I know this sounds bad, he ruined my vacation. It was supposed to be a nice week long beach trip. What it turned into was a 6 day headache. We got the call about 24 hours after we got to FL. Two days later, we almost came home and we actually came home a day early. I didn't get to just chill while we were down there, I was on edge the whole time. Do we come home, is he ok, what is going on. It was not fun at all. Yes there was some good parts, we got to see the ocean, we go to go on a nice boat ride, swim, play in the sand. But the whole trip seemed like a waste and I knew my wife wanted to be home.

I just have some many thing running through my mind right now. My back hurts like a mother fucker, I have a headache, my house is a mess, I feel like my wife is lying to me all the time and pissing away every penny we have, my son is be coming a spoiled little brat. What else..... there are just so many things. The other day I told my boss how much I hate my job. My job seems like such a waste of time, and I am so much better than it. I know I need to work hard, but I just have no motivation. This coming Wednesday I am going to go to a QA meeting and I hope I meet someone who can help me get a new job back in the QA community. I know something will come sometime, but when? How much longer do I have to wait?

What else can I talk about. My wife and I have no money, none, we can hardly pay our bills and it is not going to get better anytime soon. I hope things get better soon. I am a pretty happy guy, but on the inside I am going crazy, don't know what to do@!