I talked to both my mother and my sister yesterday, and they told me the trial went well. There are still 2 days left, so I am trying to stay optimistic. Who know what is going to happen.
Last night I decided to go to a career fair downtown. I think it was worth while to an extent. WF was there, and I talked to a woman there who I hope will help me. The woman at Banker's Trust was very rude, I was trying to feel out what position they had available. When I went up to her and did know exactly what I wanted to do, she jumped down my throat. Telling me I need to know what I want, and not make the employer guess. Well, I would do that, but I don't know how I can fit into your organization. It is a little hard to know what I want to do when I don't know what you have.
Another day, another time to read through QC. It is so much fun.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
April 28th
Last night I got the pleasure of see a Holocaust survivor speak. The woman's name is Marion Blumenthal Lazan. She is a survivor from Germany, and was in the Bergen-Belsen.I went to watch Marion with my mother, my mother's friends and my older sister. I have seen many survivor speak, been to a few Holocaust memorials/museums. Marion is a very good speaking, what I found interesting about her speech, was how easy it is for her to recite her story. I sure it is because she has told it so many time, I just found it interesting how easy it was for her.
Today is the first day of my mother and step-father's trial. I am interested to find out what happens. I should be receiving a call later today.
I am still working on learning QC. I keep rereading the same thing over and over again. I am not retaining the information, which is very frustrating to me.
I finally made it back into the gym after a 3 week lay off. I need to get in shape, I am tried of being the fat kid.
Today is the first day of my mother and step-father's trial. I am interested to find out what happens. I should be receiving a call later today.
I am still working on learning QC. I keep rereading the same thing over and over again. I am not retaining the information, which is very frustrating to me.
I finally made it back into the gym after a 3 week lay off. I need to get in shape, I am tried of being the fat kid.
Monday, April 27, 2009
April 27th
Nothing too exciting is going on in my life right now. I had another interview last week, and I think it went pretty well. My concern, is I just won't be happy working there. But at the same time, I want a new job because I still think I am going to get fired from my current job at any minute.
My weekend wasn't too exciting. I went over to my sister's house Saturday night with my wife and son, and watched a couple movies. The movies were OK, I think I would have been a woman they would have been more funny to me.
I really need to get back into the gym, but I just have no motivation to get up in the morning and go. I feel like such as lazy fat a$$ right now. I haven't been to the gym in over 3 weeks now, and I think it is really starting to wear on me.
My weekend wasn't too exciting. I went over to my sister's house Saturday night with my wife and son, and watched a couple movies. The movies were OK, I think I would have been a woman they would have been more funny to me.
I really need to get back into the gym, but I just have no motivation to get up in the morning and go. I feel like such as lazy fat a$$ right now. I haven't been to the gym in over 3 weeks now, and I think it is really starting to wear on me.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
April 22nd
I think today is going to be an interesting day. I have no idea why this is, it just sounds good today. The wife and I had a nice dinner with my sister, brother-in-law and my niece. We went out to Mexican. After dinner, the beau and I transferred all my music off of my work laptop and put it on my external hard drive. The beau also gave me a bunch of music from his hard drive. I need to wade through all this music and see exactly what I want.
After the whole music sharing, I sat down and talked with my sister and the beau, more or less shooting the shit. We talked about all kinds of stuff. Parenting and my wife were two very big topics. My parents and my sister like my wife, but they are little frustrated with her. She treats her family very differently that she treats my family. The bad part about the whole thing, I agree more with my parents that I do with my wife. I hate that my almost two years old son hits my wife. She does almost nothing about it, and he keeps hitting her. I tell him no, but she doesn't. I just don't want it to continue to happen, what happens when he goes to school and still hits. They will kick him out. I guess I just need to work harder.
I blew up on my mother Sunday night at dinner for buying golf clubs for my son. I know I shouldn't have, but I just had a lot of pent up aggression and I guess it came to a head on her for buy him some golf clubs. Thing about it, is my mother and father got divorced when I was 7 and my father never did things for me. J is more of a college buddy that my father. He always just wants to be my buddy. So I think the reason I blew up, was because I want to do all the things for my kids my father never did for me. This morning I sent my mother an apologetic email.
After the whole music sharing, I sat down and talked with my sister and the beau, more or less shooting the shit. We talked about all kinds of stuff. Parenting and my wife were two very big topics. My parents and my sister like my wife, but they are little frustrated with her. She treats her family very differently that she treats my family. The bad part about the whole thing, I agree more with my parents that I do with my wife. I hate that my almost two years old son hits my wife. She does almost nothing about it, and he keeps hitting her. I tell him no, but she doesn't. I just don't want it to continue to happen, what happens when he goes to school and still hits. They will kick him out. I guess I just need to work harder.
I blew up on my mother Sunday night at dinner for buying golf clubs for my son. I know I shouldn't have, but I just had a lot of pent up aggression and I guess it came to a head on her for buy him some golf clubs. Thing about it, is my mother and father got divorced when I was 7 and my father never did things for me. J is more of a college buddy that my father. He always just wants to be my buddy. So I think the reason I blew up, was because I want to do all the things for my kids my father never did for me. This morning I sent my mother an apologetic email.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
April 21st
So like I said before I WAS trying to stop chewing. I went almost 48 hours without a chew. Well, I broke down and bought a can. I was shaking, and I just needed a chew. This scares the crap out of me, I need to stop. There are some many things that can happen to my body, and I want to be around for when I kids grow up. I am going to keep quiting, and I hope one of these days it takes.
I am still trying to find something, I keep going on interviews but nothing is popping. Every interview I have been on I have not gotten. This just sucks. Yesterday I talked with NW, and I have an interview with them on Thursday morning. I am a little frustrated, because that job would be taking a step backward. It is the exact same thing I did when I worked for MM. But, there is the possibility to make about the same amount of money I am making now. But, it may also mean I don't get to see my family. I believe the hours are 10 to 8, so there would be the possibility for shift differential but that is probably off set by the time factor. It is just a lot to think about right now. My mother talked to a psychic a couple weeks ago, and she said I would find a new job but I would not like it. I keep wondering if the NW job is what she was talking about. I would be perfect for this job, I am sure there are other people who are as qualified as I am, but who knows.
On a happier note, last night my mother and step father bought my son a new bed. I spent about an hour putting it together in our living room. I am looking forward to put it up in his room and getting him used to it. I hope we can get CJ accumulated to the new bed before the new baby gets here. The funny part about the whole thing, a few months ago my mother said something to my wife and I about a new bed. My wife (because it came from my mother) wanted nothing to do with getting my son a new bed. He currently has a convertible crib that he sleeps in, and my wife said we would just convert that and he could still sleep in it. I took an educated look at it, and it made more sense to buy CJ a new bed and put the new baby in his old one. It is going to take some work on my wife and I's part, but I think we can get it done. The problem, is we only have a month and a half to get him used to it. I think we are going to start working on it tomorrow.
I am still trying to find something, I keep going on interviews but nothing is popping. Every interview I have been on I have not gotten. This just sucks. Yesterday I talked with NW, and I have an interview with them on Thursday morning. I am a little frustrated, because that job would be taking a step backward. It is the exact same thing I did when I worked for MM. But, there is the possibility to make about the same amount of money I am making now. But, it may also mean I don't get to see my family. I believe the hours are 10 to 8, so there would be the possibility for shift differential but that is probably off set by the time factor. It is just a lot to think about right now. My mother talked to a psychic a couple weeks ago, and she said I would find a new job but I would not like it. I keep wondering if the NW job is what she was talking about. I would be perfect for this job, I am sure there are other people who are as qualified as I am, but who knows.
On a happier note, last night my mother and step father bought my son a new bed. I spent about an hour putting it together in our living room. I am looking forward to put it up in his room and getting him used to it. I hope we can get CJ accumulated to the new bed before the new baby gets here. The funny part about the whole thing, a few months ago my mother said something to my wife and I about a new bed. My wife (because it came from my mother) wanted nothing to do with getting my son a new bed. He currently has a convertible crib that he sleeps in, and my wife said we would just convert that and he could still sleep in it. I took an educated look at it, and it made more sense to buy CJ a new bed and put the new baby in his old one. It is going to take some work on my wife and I's part, but I think we can get it done. The problem, is we only have a month and a half to get him used to it. I think we are going to start working on it tomorrow.
Friday, April 17, 2009
April 17th
Day number 2 with no chew. It has been almost 48 hours now, that I have not had a dip. Actually I had a very small one last night, but I am not counting that one because it was so small and I only had it in for 5 minutes. I am not going to lie though, I am jonesing for a dip right now. This morning hasn't been too bad, I am just kind of chilling. I talked to my father last night (always an interesting time). He told me, he went out on a date yesterday. This took me by surprise. My father is almost 60 years old, he lives with his sister, my mother took his house a few year ago because he never paid child support, he doesn't work, and is an all around weird guy. Tonight we are going to dinner for my sister's birthday. She again is an interesting individual. She thinks and wants the world to revolve around her. R turns 35 tomorrow, and she wanted a big party and she wanted her husband to make a big deal out of her birthday. The only problem, is they don't have a lot of money, and they are moving next month. I just don't get her some time, no one makes a big deal out of my birthday, 35 is not a big birthday, and the sun does not rise and set on her ass.
The wife went to the doctor yesterday, and everything is looking great for the new baby. On the 30th we will decide when the c-section is going to happen. I am looking forward to meeting my new son.
The wife went to the doctor yesterday, and everything is looking great for the new baby. On the 30th we will decide when the c-section is going to happen. I am looking forward to meeting my new son.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
April 16th
So yesterday turned out to be a pretty crappy day. I had been holding my breath as to speak about getting a new position with WF. But I got an email yesterday saying "we chose someone else". Plus I have been trying to rap my mind around some items, at my current job and just can't seem to do it. So when I got home last night, I decided to drink a half a bottle of MM. I didn't get drunk, I just wanted something to make me feel a little bit better. After my first 2 glasses, I decided to smoke a cigar and take a walk, to help me think. I came up with a saying, "IF YOU DON'T DO SH*T, YOU ARE SH*T". Now these may not sound like the most intelligent words, but for the past few months I feel like this. I have done just enough to get by. I really think it is biting me in the butt now. I need to get my butt in gear and make something of myself. I need to work hard, do more at home, save money. I just need to change a few things in my life. Just make myself a better person. Again, I am going to try quit chewing. I need to get back into the gym. I need to work harder, I currently feel like such a loser!
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
April 15th
So, today is tax day. In my family, that is actually a pretty important day. My parents own a tax firm, and my sister work there as well. This year is a little different though. I am not sure if there is going to be a firm after May 1st. I believe there is more going on than my mother is telling me. But you never know what is going to happen.
Last night, I am just sat around and watched TV. Carter was his usual self and wanted to watch Jimmy, and Halloween. This pretty much happens every night. I watched some UFC, and then watched a new show called "deadliest warriors". For some reason, I find this show very interesting. It pity two historical soldier against one another. Last night was a samurai versus a viking. The samurai won, but it was a pretty close fight.
This weekend, I was supposed to go to Chicago with Ball. But, instead I am staying home. The bachelor found someone else to go with them. I was looking forward to going, but at the same time money is a little tight right now so it is probably better that I don't go.
Still working on learning QC, there is so much information to learn and I am trying to rap my mind around it. The lady, who is doing the online presentation and I are becoming very good friends.
Last night, I am just sat around and watched TV. Carter was his usual self and wanted to watch Jimmy, and Halloween. This pretty much happens every night. I watched some UFC, and then watched a new show called "deadliest warriors". For some reason, I find this show very interesting. It pity two historical soldier against one another. Last night was a samurai versus a viking. The samurai won, but it was a pretty close fight.
This weekend, I was supposed to go to Chicago with Ball. But, instead I am staying home. The bachelor found someone else to go with them. I was looking forward to going, but at the same time money is a little tight right now so it is probably better that I don't go.
Still working on learning QC, there is so much information to learn and I am trying to rap my mind around it. The lady, who is doing the online presentation and I are becoming very good friends.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
April 14th
So I am a little new to this whole blogging thing. Today is April 14th, and I am starting a blog. I have read a few in the past, and even my niece has one and she is only 22 months old.
I got the pleasure last night of talking to my best friend, the reverend. I have always thought it was very funny that my best friend is a minister, and I am Jewish. But I can talk to this guy about anything. He has seen me in the worst of times and helped me through them.
Currently I am going through somewhat of a hard time. My job seems to be in jeopardy on a daily basis, but I just keep showing up to work, and they haven't fired me yet. I am currently trying to find something else, I have been on a few interviews but nothing has happened yet. I just wish I could figure it all out. One of the following things needs to happen:
1. Fire me
2. Find me a contract
3. Get a new job
The waiting game is the worst. I have trouble sleeping, nothing sounds good anymore. I only eat to shut my stomach up.
I have been chewing for 5 or 6 years now hard core. I know I need to stop, my worst fear is I am going to get cancer and die. I don't want that to happen, but I just can't quite. I get so bored at work, and chewing seems to help the boredom.
I got the pleasure last night of talking to my best friend, the reverend. I have always thought it was very funny that my best friend is a minister, and I am Jewish. But I can talk to this guy about anything. He has seen me in the worst of times and helped me through them.
Currently I am going through somewhat of a hard time. My job seems to be in jeopardy on a daily basis, but I just keep showing up to work, and they haven't fired me yet. I am currently trying to find something else, I have been on a few interviews but nothing has happened yet. I just wish I could figure it all out. One of the following things needs to happen:
1. Fire me
2. Find me a contract
3. Get a new job
The waiting game is the worst. I have trouble sleeping, nothing sounds good anymore. I only eat to shut my stomach up.
I have been chewing for 5 or 6 years now hard core. I know I need to stop, my worst fear is I am going to get cancer and die. I don't want that to happen, but I just can't quite. I get so bored at work, and chewing seems to help the boredom.
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