Addiction, SF Giants, Childserv, and the Dr.

As the title of this post states, I plan to talk about addiction, the San Francisco Giant, volunteering at Childserv, and my doctor's appointment which I have tomorrow (10/30/14). But first, I would like to talk about my masturbation habits. As I have stated in previous posts, I have a problem with rubbing one out at work. Well, today I was able to refrain from rubbing one out. I was very close, but someone walked in the bathroom and I decided not to do it. I hope if I keep writing in here about my problem, I will be able to overcome this issue and stop masturbating at work. One day down, a million more to go. One day at a time I guess.

   Now that I have that out of the way I can talk about the other things I would like to tonight. First I want to talk about my other addiction. I chew tobacco! I go through about a full can of Copenhagen Extra Long Cut Natural every other day. I actually have a dip in right now as I am writing this. I told myself many years ago I would not every be addicted to anything. I really don't have a sweet tooth, I don't smoke cigarettes (mainly because my asthma does not allow me to), I don't drink to excess, I don't even drink what I would consider a lot. Yes, I am over weight, but I don't think I am really addicted to anything other than chewing tobacco. I have been chewing this brand for the last 5 years (I think). Before that, I chewed a different brand. I have been chewing in general for the last 10 or 15 years. I think I have been doing it since I was in college. Chewing tobacco does scare me. I am afraid I will get lip, throat, stomach, etc. cancer at any point. I just can't stop doing it though. I have tried in the past, but every time I come back to my old friend. I really do need to quite this, unlike my other addiction, this one could actually keep me or at the very least permanently scar my body. I know my wife thinks it is gross and I don't want my kids to EVER start doing it. Just like any other form of addiction, once you start it is damn near impossible to quite. Maybe like my other addiction, if I talk about it here I will realize what a big deal it is and I will quite on my own. It is already working to an extent. I just took out my dip and tossed it in a cup so I can't put it back in.

   Now on to the World Champion San Francisco Giants. Yes, the Giants won their third world series title in the last 5 years. They won in 2010, 2012 and now in 2014. I was rooting for the Giants to win for most of the playoff since the Cubbies and the Sox (my favorite teams) were not in the playoffs this year. Then a funny thing happened towards the end of the world series. I started rooting for KC a little bit. I mean they have not won a WS since 1985, and KC is much closer to DSM than SF is. Anyway, I won a bet with my 7 year old son. I get the great honor of choosing where I take my family to dinner tomorrow night before we go out trick or treating. I think I got the raw end of this deal. Basically I lose either way I guess. I still have to take them out for dinner and I will probably just pick up McDonalds for them.

   Childserv is the old Children Habilitation Center (CHC) I used to volunteer at when I was in high school. I volunteered there this afternoon. I handed out little bags of cotton candy. I did this with a bunch of people from my office, I think there was 20 or 30 people from my office. We did it for a United Way week. I doubt I made any kind of a difference in any of the kids lives, but it made me feel good. I felt like I was giving back just a little to the great state I live in. I also felt bad for all the kids I saw today. They will never know what it is like to be a "normal" kid. They will never be able to run around like "normal" kids, play ball with their dads. Some don't even get to live with their family. There was some kids I met today who live at the community. They never get to leave. I can't even imagine what that would be like. I was able to bring both of my children home with me from the hospital. Neither one of them have any major problem. Both live pretty normal lives. I am thankful everyday I have such great boys. If I learned anything today, it was that I need to appreciate my child and what I have. It could be a lot worse.

   The last thing I am going to talk about tonight, is my doctor's appointment that is scheduled for 11:30am tomorrow. The main reason I am talking about it now, is that I need to lose some weight. I need to get my fat ass in gear and lose 100 or so pounds. I am uncomfortable most day because of my weight. It has effected my sex life and my attitude most days. It doesn't help that I have a herniated disk in my neck so my arms go numb most days. But that is no excuse, I just need to start working out again. I already pay for the YMCA membership, it is about damn time I use it.